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2012-01-30T15:13:00.000+08:00

mmm.............................................................

2012-01-30T15:09:00.002+08:00

sometimes i think that people dont care about what i feel.

what i dont realise is i dont care about what they feel too.

heh. think about it. it works both ways.

idk what rubbish i talking.

but anw.

i wanna scream.

again.

but it doesnt help.

2012-01-13T23:48:00.002+08:00

done with kimi wa petto!!

heh that drama made me cryyyyy D:

but i'm glad that it's a happy ending(:

interview went okay, but no reply yetttt,

so i guess i'm not getting that job, ahaha.

went to acco today, cas nothing to do.

heh, at least i had fun again haha.

but tmr not goingggg.

tmr appeal students coming acco!!!

hehhh.

tmr got pco laaa, some bursary award perf?

i wanna see the hoody haha.

I WANNA SINGGGGGG.

ahahahaha.

紧紧抱着你~

2012-01-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

watched kimi wa petto just now in the afternoon, two episodes, quite nice, ahaha.

after co, went to shop for cny clothes and shoes with mother.

wanted to cut hair,

but, nahhh, too late already.

got job interview on thurs morning.

looool i need luck, i'm bad at interviews.

(people who know me well will know what i mean)

AC OPEN HOUSE TOMORROW.

gonna wake EARLYYYYYY :D

but go acjc confirm stone a lot.

cas j3 ma (so old),

can choose NOT to help out.

HEHHH :D

2012-01-10T12:05:00.001+08:00

gonna try watching kimi wa petto.

dk whats that LOL.

2012-01-10T11:45:00.001+08:00

heh veh bored.

today gonna be like yesterday..

acco in afternoon again.

i miss school.

honesttttt.

2012-01-09T22:08:00.001+08:00

i don't understand.

2012-01-09T21:53:00.002+08:00

co was boring, but still okay la(:

keep laughing, haha i think phoonyi pissed off at me ahahaha.

o level results,

heh.

if you did well, congratssss man(:

if you didn't, cheerrrup, thr's still hope.

it doesn't end there.

went to chinese doc for my headaches and fainting spells.

wahhh alot things cant eat.

no chicken.

no duck.

no cold stuff.

no sour stuff.

no kangkong.

no egg.

no carrot.(wth?)

no fries.

AND MANY MORE.

omg, what am i gonna have for my meals????!

2012-01-09T14:50:00.002+08:00

blooody shit having headache again AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

okay.

this time i really go out alr.

SEEYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA,

whoever's thr.

2012-01-09T14:44:00.001+08:00

i feel like watching a drama that will make me cry.

lol sianned.

i should go off soon.

2012-01-09T14:36:00.000+08:00

AHHH GOT ACCO LATER.

HEH

havent had lunch yet.

lyn's MIA.

listening to

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EIulZ0Vw2z8

emo song.

2012-01-09T13:40:00.003+08:00

no job yet):

done with the book 'the shining'

hehh scary muchhhh.

now doing nothing at home.

wanted to go out to the library but it started raining):

lyn taking 'o' level results today.

hope she gets what she wants(:

2012-01-06T23:07:00.002+08:00

i've got a list of songs I HAVE TO LISTEN.

No.	Title
1.	"Oh Well, Oh Well"
2.	"No Heroes Allowed"
3.	"When You See My Friends"
4.	"You're Dead Wrong"
5.	"Priceless"
6.	"Stay"
7.	"Call Me Hopeless, But Not Romantic"
8.	"A Shot Across the Bow"
9.	"Everything's an Illusion"
10.	"I'd Rather Make Mistakes Than Nothing at All"
11.	"Without the Bitter the Sweet Isn't as Sweet"
12.	"Happy Endings Are Stories That Haven't Ended Yet" Copied from wikipedia. oooohhhh im so lag ahahaha.

2012-01-06T22:40:00.002+08:00

YOU KNOW WHATTTT?

I REALLY WANT A PRINTER.

i wanna print piano sheeeetssss ))))):

heh still looking for job!

gonna be busy with CO these dayssss!

not going church tmr):

not done reading 'the shining' yet.

hoho.

http://www.stephenking.com/index.html

whoooo!

ahahahahaha :D

2012-01-05T22:19:00.002+08:00

hooo boring day.

reading 'the shining' by stephen king.

keep reading stephen king books now.

they're so scary.

not suitable to read just before going to sleep.

you'ld get nightmares D:

(like how i sometimes do)

but well, they're interesting.

i wonder how stephen king is like.

he must have such a BIGGG imaginative mind.

unimaginable.

still finding job.

sent some emails just now.

hope i do get one.

tmr, acco again, self sectionals.

might not go, ahaha.

2012-01-04T22:51:00.005+08:00

found piano sheet music that i wanna try but my printer's spoilt):

there's spritied away, marioooo and othersss. damnnnnn D:

want to continue piano lessons also can't, NO MONEY.

wth no money you cant do a thing.

wheeee listening to spirited away now.

hope the next few days are busy days for me(:

2011-12-27T23:20:00.001+08:00

HIII

nice tagboard i have there!

boring boring holidays.

anyone found a job?

intro me

I'm DESPERATE.

hokey dokey bye(:

2011-07-02T22:49:00.002+08:00

“How to Save a Life:
1. Love
2. Listen
3. Breathe
4. Imagine
5. Let it go
6. Believe
7. Forgive
8. Hold still
9. Hold close
10. Amaze yourself
11. Remember
12. Make yourself secure
13. Make everyone secure
14. Take it back
15. Let it go
16. Dream
17. Fear
18. Talk to someone
19. Don’t lie
20. Don’t pretend
21. Trust yourself
22. Cry
23. Accept
24. Don’t hurt yourself
25. Don’t hurt anyone
26. Keep moving
27. Regret
28. Forget
29. Make peace
30. Make love
31. Banish wars
32. Banish hate
33. Be free
34. Feel free
35. Stand still
36. Don’t be scared of death
37. Have faith
38. Admire
39. Stand strong
40. Surrender
41. Dance
42. Smile
43. Laugh
44. Break
45. Touch
46. Have secrets
47. Share secrets
48. Know secrets
49. Relieve
50. Don’t lie to yourself
51. Release
52. Run
53. Learn
54. Leave
55. Trust others
56. Question
57. Be kind
58. Keep your memories
59. Don’t forget
60. Kiss
61. Hug
62. Scream out
63. Be true
64. Admit
65. Live
66. Release the fear
67. Secure
86. Open up
99. Say goodbye”

2011-05-23T00:46:00.000+08:00

i aint doing this right.
im not dealing with my emotions properly.
and screw that,cas i dont know how to.
all i know is to sleep and try to forget about everything.

wish i could live in a utopia of chocolate land.
whn thr's chocolate,i'll be happy.
who cares about what you mean to someone?

im not making any sense am i?
but im not out of my mind.
im still thinking logically.(i guess)

mid years is so screwed up.
i hope prelims nd As wont be this way.
anw most prolly gna be in ssp aft MYE.
ya,waste of time but.
i deserve it.

CO concert on 12june.
people please attend..
might be my last time performing.
(i hope not tho)
aye,sianness.

i cant wait for all this shit to end.
goodnight world.

2011-05-18T00:48:00.001+08:00

can't complete essay.

i hope i dont get screwed.

2011-05-17T22:38:00.002+08:00

almost one month since i posted.

co syf over, we got gold(:

was emotionless when they announced it that day,haha.

mid years up next.

not ready for it.

totally. (not being sarcastic here)

like... HOMEWORK OVERLOADDD.

where got time for revision?

and suddenly this year got so many tuitions, WITH TUITION HOMEWORK.

how am i supposed to handle this argh.

yalaaaa im pitying myself-.-

zzzz.

ok screw that.

listening to switchfoot songs now.

gonna try to do gp essay soon,

if not ms too will send me to detention on thurs.

I WOULDNT WANT THAT CAS THURS IS BUSY ):

enCOre aft mid years.

mhmm, new songs,

but even choice of songs also create angst.

lol.if you know what im talking about.

whee.hope wont screw the concert.

first have to think about who to sell the tickets to zzz ):

EHHH my methodist walk card is empty):

maybe i'll just put $2 in tomorrow.

mdm will be angry, but what to do?

ahaha.

went out today, to pray at bukit merah some temple.

with uncle jeffery and family.

lalala, they went to visit travel agencies at peoples park complex.

going overseas during dec?

idk.

wheee.

aiyah screw this.

feeling sian.

HAIH):

2011-04-18T21:58:00.003+08:00

head was hurting almost the whole day.

school was badddd, i wasnt talking agn, as usual.

but co was okay, CAS GOT NEW RUANSSS!

zomg, so freakin' pretttayyee! hahahaha, i was saying we should put picture of naked men on ser min's daruan so i can see it everyday :D

AYYEEE.

home now and im distracted AGAIN ):

BOO.

i need positive energy.

maybe i just need a reason to cry.

2011-04-04T22:17:00.002+08:00

BOO.

long time since i came here.

so very sian nowwwww.

schoolwork, tuition hmk, co.

and aye syf coming soon.......

i've been complaining about people recently.

altho i complain till SHUANG, but i feel guilty sometimes x.x

hahahahahahaha.

what am i doinggggg.

i cant make it for As ):

2011-03-04T00:31:00.002+08:00

i see twitter.

i see people talking about the need for a motivation.

oh wow the things i see.

in the things i see i see myself.

sometimes.

lalalala~

been singing/humming 'your heaven' by yui with gordon recently, haha(:

kept repeating 'when you believe' prince of egypt song while i was trying to study.

suddenly feel like playing the piano.

boo.

alright, uhhhhh A level results today.

good luck to j3s~

tho none will ever come here hahahahaha.

and good luck to those taking back chinese and gsc results.

hope you guys get the results you want.

lol im like talking to myself.

seeya, peeps. (myself)

2011-02-24T22:46:00.001+08:00

as usual, go online no progress in doing hmk.

hahaha.

i'm a walking travesty,

but i'm smiling at everything.

2011-02-24T21:47:00.002+08:00

hello people!

finally using computer to post.

such a long time since i touched the keyboard!

all time low songs again(:

it's friday tomorrow!

ahh, i hope they dont postpone cross country..

i want my monday,boo.

IDKWTH.

2011-02-24T00:08:00.000+08:00

in bed now.

today was SCREWED.as in overall.. :/
lessons were SUCKY,
aft that..
lemon chicken for lunch.
then it rained~ so stayed thr and played with rainwater with gordon nd ish.haha so childish but fun :D
thn.subway for din.
dropped gordon's file :/
ayeee.

nt doin hmk tonight.
sleeptime,people.

2011-02-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

ah.i seriously fail at studying.

WHY THE HELL ARE THERE LESSONS TMR?!!
argh,asssss...
who got the mood to run aft boring lessons?
i wanna go hm sleep lo,aye.

anw.
have fun tmr.

hope preparation for terms is going well for those taking exams soon(:
gambateh!(:

2011-02-22T06:46:00.000+08:00

ELLO.
morning dudes!
im off to sch,hahaha.
thr's swimming tdy!(: *bloopbloop*
okay,time to get out of my seat.

seeya!(:

2011-02-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

heyya,valentines day people!
just reached home.tired.
thanks amanda nd nukunniny!miss you peeps >< esp wna hug xian fei,haha(:
nv buy anything this yr.yea,just a normal day.BUT THANK YOU PEOPLE FOR PRESENTS!(:
aye.time for dinner.
chao.

you asked me once to choose: you,or friends?
my reaction?

2011-02-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW ALL TIME LOW!!!
OMG THEY FING ROCKKKKK~!!!!!:D
\m/

hahahahahahhahaha :D
homeworkkkk! lots of them.
but now at friend's house(:
listening to ALL TIME LOWWW!!!
WHOOOOOOOOO!!hahahahahahaha.

hee, tmr then do hmk la eh.
hahahahahaha.
lovin their music(:

TODAY IS THE DAY I FIRST DRANK WINE!

2011-02-06T11:16:00.000+08:00

must be hurting so bad.

2011-02-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

hi people.i just want to sleep.nothing will be the same anymore.in a few days time,everything will change.it's history repeating itself.idk how to deal with this.

2011-02-04T14:12:00.000+08:00

it is so frustrating to deal with me right..i said it frm the start,im evil.and ya i dnt appreciate the things arnd me.im so selfish.thats nt all tho.watever.im tired of this.happy cny?nah.what rubbish.i wna slp.im sorry for whatever ive caused.just hope that things will be alright but seems impossible.thats why..sleep.BUT HELL,gotta go visit ppl hse.seeya peeps.sorry,just need smwhr to rant.

2011-02-02T00:46:00.001+08:00

oh i forgot,

you don't know about it.

hope you didnt do it on purpose then.

shit laa.

goodnight.

2011-02-02T00:15:00.001+08:00

song stuck in my head for now.

hell, perf later on.

so what.

2011-02-01T23:11:00.001+08:00

zzzzzzzzzzzz.

wth.

what's happeninngggg.

-.-

should just go sleep right.

2011-01-31T21:15:00.002+08:00

bahh, the lyrics..

thanks jia an for introducing me to the song.

whoohoo, ALL TIME LOW!:D

alex's voice!!!

people are so self-centered.

that's including me la duh,haha.

shit la x.x

sometimes just feel like wanna turn back the time and redo everything all over again.

as if that will change things...

wonder what will it be like?

for the better?

or the worse?

sometimes just wanna dig a hole and hide inside,haha.

nono.

just wanna hide inside my shell.

turtle much.

blahhh, should be doing hmk, but listening to songs.

can't multi task eh.

gah.

chinese new year's in a few days time.

boo, i can't stayover.

can't i be a guy? damn.

RAWRRRRR, gonna stone during CNY.

prolly bring storybook go people's house read o.o

unless mudder say rude lo.

then bo bian, STONE.

okay la, actl not so bad, can eat, bwahahahaha.

weather's so cold nowadays.

nice to sleep(:

I MIGHT BURSTTTTT someday.

nothing's making sense at all.
wonder, why do we race?
when everyday we're runnin' in circles,
such a funny way to fall.
tried to open up my eyes,
i'm hopin' for a chance to make it alright.

2011-01-30T21:31:00.002+08:00

my gawwdddd it's gonna be february alr!!! so fast and one month just flew by x.x

shit laaaaa, As is so super soon.

and i havent done anything much

howhowhow? x.x

sian, physics waves, chem hydrocarbon and math vectors also havent finish yet :/

gonna lag behind again soon.

haih.

then cny,

wont have time to do hmk.

i gonna eat as much as i wanttttt!:D yumm.

i want chocolate!hahahaha.

okayyyyy, enough rubbish.

anyway, i inserted a tagboard back again.

hope no stupid spammers again.

2011-01-18T01:05:00.001+08:00

screw this, screw that!

DAMNNN, not doing anything productive.

might as well go sleep now right?

goodnightttttttt.

so fail, so fail.

aye, so fail.

i wonder....

2011-01-18T00:33:00.001+08:00

can you hear it?

how sorrowful..

AH,

i hope i can survive week two.

gahh, almost cannot take it alr.

tutorials alr piling up, what the hellll...

and today (17 Jan) so fail........

gah.

i wanna sleep.

2011-01-13T23:49:00.001+08:00

wonder how can people stay so strong.

2011-01-02T01:01:00.002+08:00

YEAR 2011!!

hey people!

i spent my new year in front of the comp! ( i mean midnight)

and spent the first day of new year going to bugis with my family to shop till my legs were about to fail me.

and i had a boyfriend for several hours :D SO COOL!HAHAHA.

this boyfriend likes to pinch the fats on my arm,bwahahaha.

cute boyf(:

took a lot of photos with him.

HE'S SO CUTE!

hahahaha, shh, im not telling you who's that HAHAHA.

looking at old stuff makes me feel old.

makes me want to go back to the past.

ARGHHH.

i wanna go back to the past!!!

x.x

nehmind........

since i can't do that..

i just have to jiayou for the future.

damn.

alright, jiayou.

HAHA.

all the best.

HAHA.

2010-12-16T23:08:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oCCnxBos10&feature=branded

hold my hand.

2010-12-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

hoho, im back.

so how christmassss?

i have no plans, bwahahahaha.

rot at home!

sleeeep.

hahahahahaha.

i dont want school to start!

boo :/

sometimes i just wish......

2010-12-07T01:45:00.001+08:00

i dont want the holidays to end.

i wanna live in this dreamland...

350th post

2010-11-23T22:27:00.001+08:00

BLAHH HAHA HELLOOOO

I SO LOVE THE HOLIDAYYYYYY!!!

haha but DAMNNNN,

Mdm Fabiola said have to start studying.

i dont wannnaaaaaaa!! :/ boo.

but A levels.

oh my shittt x.x

i wanna go out MOREEEEEE!!!:D

people, emo lesss!!!(:

2010-11-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

wanna screammm.

2010-11-09T03:38:00.003+08:00

just had a rough night/morning with my printer.

phew.

OP DISCUSSION AGAIN LATER ON IN THE MORNING/AFTERNOON.

op starts today btw,

good luck for op guys!(:

ya this feeling of helplessness.

like you wanna help but you cant do a thing.

suucks right.

sucks like shittttzzzz.

im content.

live with it!:D

(psychoing in process)

2010-10-31T17:18:00.001+08:00

so selfish and so greedy of me.

can't seem to change that.

why?

i should stop bitching around.

yea what a bitch.

zzz.

dk wtf is wrong with me.

tmr chinese A levels.

good luck guys

im so sorry i prolly screwed your exam for you. cas im just so selfish.

need some time alone.

alone.

2010-10-31T00:35:00.002+08:00

i just wanna treasure what we have.

and not lose it.

so please..

and..im sorry again.

keep doing wrong things.

damn me.

);

i said the night would be sad.

didnt expect the morning to be the same too.

2010-10-30T01:13:00.002+08:00

haha, uselessss...

2010-10-29T01:28:00.001+08:00

1000 miles............

if i can just see you,

if i can just hold you,

tonight..

whoo.

sleep.

goodnight peeps.

2010-10-26T01:05:00.001+08:00

like hugs(:

and the sound of piano is so soothing(:

haihhhaihh,pw shit.

end this shit la.

chinese shit also.

boo-ey.

after all those shit still got more shit to come.

endless shit! x.x

2010-10-23T23:01:00.001+08:00

i need a hug.

these few days have been );

i hope

things turn out fine eventually.

2010-10-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

slacking nw.just wanted to say sth b4 promos:

everyone concentrate nd give their best kay!(:

ps: i toldya,didnt i?i warned you.jiayou study ba.hope you do well for promos,haha,you can do it!and uh lastly,sorry.

2010-09-29T00:06:00.001+08:00

siansiansiannn.

really veh sian now luhhh.

dont wanna do anything.

stoned just now.

blahhh x.x

sian luh......... :/

i damn fail sia,zzzz.

2010-09-26T23:15:00.004+08:00

ahh, deleted my tagboard.

boo, anw it's of little use.

so,

haha,

this week gonna be :/

studystudystudy.

bahhh then next week promos alr.

haha good luck peeps.

all the way! :D

btw, i cut my hair o.o

----------------------------------------
now that it's all said and done,

i can't believe you were the one
to build me up and tear me down
like an old abandoned house
what you said when you left
just left me cold and out of breath
i felt as if i was in way too deep
guess i let you get the best of me

well, i never saw it coming
i should have started running
a long, long time ago,
and i never thought i'd doubt you
i'm better off without you
more than you, more than you know
i'm slowly getting closure
i guess it's really over
i'm finally gettin' better
now i'm picking up the pieces
from spending all of these years
putting my heart back together
cause the day i thought i'd never get through
i got over you

you took a hammer to these walls
dragged the memories down the hall
packed your bags, and walked away
there was nothing i could say
and when you slammed the front door shut
a lot of others opened up
so did my eyes, so i could see
that you never were the best for me

well,i never saw it coming
i should have started running
a long, long time ago,
and i never thought i'd doubt you
i'm better off without you
more than you, more than you know
i'm slowly getting closure
i guess it's really over
i'm finally gettin' better
now i'm picking up the pieces
from spending all of these years
putting my heart back together
cause the day i thought i'd never get through

i got over you

well,i never saw it coming
i should have started running
a long, long time ago,
and i never thought i'd doubt you
i'm better off without you
more than you, more than you know

i'm slowly getting closure
i guess it's really over
i'm finally gettin' better
now i'm picking up the pieces
from spending all of these years
putting my heart back together

putting my heart back together

cause i got over you
i got over you
i got over you

the day i thought i'd never get through
i got over you

-Over You, by Daughtry

2010-09-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

haha, long time nv post alr,
i feel a need to rant.
promos round the corner,
i havent prepared for any shit yetttt, so... D:

my body is out of sorts lately,
going to sleep and waking up at weird hours, idk whats happening.
and feeling super tired in school even though i slept quite early the last night.
wth is wrong man.

had a talk with mdm sophia.
thanks, i needed that.
idk how to say, but i felt warmth.
haha..made me think a lot today, until now im still thinking about what she said.

haha useless bum man me,
i should do something.

yea, i should.

haha seems like my ranting skills failed again, whoo.
whatever laa,
cya man~

have enough rest, peeeeeps!

2010-09-03T23:49:00.001+08:00

today was fun actl :D
owe a lot of thanks(:

ha, but didnt study AT ALL today :/
ahhh, wtv, i got pw to do frz,
cya.

ha, just what did i say about me being a lousy friend.

2010-09-02T01:42:00.003+08:00

people who have me as their friend must be so unlucky.

time to sleep man.

can't think alr,boo.

tomorrow(later) will be better.i hope.

me,a fcking liar.

it's so retarded to cry over nothing.

and thats what im doing cas im a retarded retard.

2010-09-02T00:26:00.001+08:00

WHAT THE FARKKKKKKKK D:

2010-08-29T15:11:00.002+08:00

slept for so long ytd night + this morning.
ahhh, so sorry :/

tuition was booring, but at least i learnt sth.

geo test tmr, screw this.
i haven't even do a single hmk yet.

HAHA stupid bro is making me laugh.

AHHHH people dont emo la.dont siannnnn too, boo :/

i need a holiday too,didi ):

2010-08-27T00:21:00.002+08:00

HAIIII!!! my 333rd post,whoo.
hahahahaha today was supposed to be a night of studying.
but im slacking instead.
AS USUAL!
now doing GP introduction thingggy.

am so in love with songs! :D
haha, i can't wait to sleeeep for as long as i want.

AHHH PLEASE DONT FREAK ME OUT.
i get freaked out too,
about the 7th month thing.
please dontttttttttttttttt! x.x

im feelin hungryyy!!!

blueberry is niceeee(:

2010-08-25T01:51:00.002+08:00

whooo, i passed my piano exam!:D

haheho, lucky i didnt fail.

really really lucky(:

haha, failed math, as expected.

so surprising that i even got marks,hahaha.

math teacher tio stun, ask me what happened.

loool.she should get it that im not a guai kia...

im just a retarded slacker..

ooh, so 4/11 outing?

:/ if have i scared i cant make it...

mooo, i miss peeeeeeps ):

ahlalalalaalala, going for learning journey later, police heritage center.

hope it wont be boring.

i need entertainmentttttttt.

supposed to do eom just now..

but..

geo took up my time.

so, boo.

haha nehmind, time to sleeep(:

i've been waiting for this for soooo long,muahahaha.

sleeeeeeep!!!

goodnight everyoneeeee~

yes, everything will be alright.

just remember to breathe.

2010-08-23T12:36:00.003+08:00

okayyy, posting during project work lesson.
hope no teacher comes here.
welll...
critical thinking.
independent thinking.

im mentally lazy.
not open minded.
just...
lazy.
whoo.
lazinesss ownnssss.
im mentally lazy, physically lazy too.
THATS WHY
I DONT HAVE AN OPINION OF MY OWN.
im lazy to think.
I DONT HAVE A STAND AT ALL.
im so lazy.

yea, im just lazy.

2010-08-22T21:30:00.003+08:00

haha, me tagging at my own tagboard.
so booooored.
but so many things to do eh haha.
math test tmr.
boo.
havent revise yet.
boo.

i wonderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....
if i can ever get promoted this year.
exams screwed,
pw screwed.

think about all the things that have piled up, it's really :/
piano exam results out this week i guess.
if this week no info from teacher, i prolly fail alr, so.
boo.

how i wish life was as simple as before.
then i everyday happy.

get frustrated so often nowadays.
wth is wrong with me.

--------------------------------------------

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
No one could hold me down
No one could keep me around
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time

Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

My father, he was always wise
As wise as an elephant's eyes
He couldn't hold me down
He couldn't keep me around
So are you gonna take your shot?
It's the only one that you got
Maybe I'll go out on a limb
Maybe I'll jump in for a swim
When the lights go dim

You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
(Need to take a holiday)

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa ~

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
And I don't think I'll ever change
I think I'm gonna stay the same

I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday (need to take a holiday)
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase (set off on a new chase)
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

~ Holiday by Boys Like Girls

2010-08-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

hee,today i ran 2.4 for napfa.
thanks peeeps for the support and encouragement!(:
aft that wanted to play softball but..
i saw 'black stars' again, so went to rest lo...

haihhh, i need $$$$$.
really really need $$$$$.
actually i want more $$$ la..
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ :/
MAY have to stop piano lessons, damn.

wind was so nice todayyyy :D
but the rain wasnt,haha.
i think im hating rainy days more and more,
i wonder why..

BLAHHHH,
im screwed.
supposed to be doing eom now but im blogging.
uhuhhuhuhhh wth.
i wanted to blog about quite a lot of things at first.
but then..
I FORGOT ALREADY.
hee, ownage memory.

SONGS! :D
singsingsing~
i miss singing with sb.

2010-08-12T01:43:00.001+08:00

how this feels?
feels bloody awful.
can't even complete.
how am i gonna take a levels this way?
no..how am i even gonna pass promos?

2010-08-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

SUGAR RUSH!

i wanna sing............................boooohoooooohhoooohoooooohoooo.

bahahahaahahahahahaahahahaaaaa :(

2010-08-11T22:26:00.003+08:00

todayyyy suckkked.
slept through chem lecture.
almost the whole lecture.... :/
and during gp test, i slept too, wth right.
the sleep-during-exam syndrome is back again.
zzzz.
screw this.
testsssss.
and homework not completed.
and to top it offfff, project work.
woohoo, ownnage.
wanna just go sleep and not care about studies.
realllyyy want to.

i miss a lot of peeeeeople.......

sth to be happy about: lyn gave me a lollipop(:

i know i shouldnt ask for more.
i shouldnt be greedy.
oh man, stop it already.

piano exam day.all the best to the retard.

2010-08-05T01:34:00.004+08:00

looks like i was wrong, a lvl spa not this week luh, BLURRRR.
okay, hey retard, why are you still awake?
tmr's your piano exam ya know?
YAAAA I KNOW-.-
just printed scores.
gonna pack bag and sleep alr.
bye folks.

and... good luck to me..
im gonna pass this.

i dont belong anywhere.
lyn says: left out.
yea, we just belong to our family.
butsometimesourparentsgocrazy.

2010-08-02T01:55:00.000+08:00

SO THIS IS IT.
im just gonna lag behind everyone and rottt..
rott...
rot.

zzz.

2010-08-02T01:40:00.001+08:00

tiredd...
wanna sleep, but.. there's eom.
hell mannnn...
till now still not confident for aural..
really, no hope.

so how?
sleep?
pack bag?
eom?
idk.
whatever it is..
i'm screwed.

2010-08-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

thankyou people for all the happy birthday wishes!(:

haha actl today wasnt a good day, cept for the weather, haha.

i was angry with my mother for sth stupid,
had to go for piano lesson at the studio,
my siblings fought.

hahahaha at least i got to sleep quite a lot:D

gonna get so screwed this week.
homework all not done yet, gonna skip lessons(shh...),
and... aural hvnt memo yet, and thr's piano exam this week.
holy shit, and thr's chinese compo competition o:
okay, that's still fine.
thr's still chem and physics spa.
and physics test.
bloody shitttttt x.x

cya man.

how not to wallow in self pity?

2010-07-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

heeee, frz time at marina barrage.
with ninny, jelly, and mao :D
haha, thanks girls(:

school days. BOO. D:

and my piano exam ,really GG la...
my piano teacher's pissed with me for not practising and studying enough.. :/
diediedie. i dont wanna fail........................

haih,
lots of things.
to do.

goodnight~

2010-07-15T22:33:00.002+08:00

today is slack day for me,
till now havent do hmk.
whr's that energy..
school days are just getting more boring each day.
ohyea,a miracle happened.
i passed geography.
like O.O WTH, what luck,hee.

please be there and help him..
idk what to do..

2010-07-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

why am i still here?
HA.

2010-07-13T20:34:00.001+08:00

was pissed off.
now okay alr.
so many things to do..
really a lot...
idk laaa..
tmr chinese oral,yea.
still have to go sch earlier for napfa training.
aye.
cya.

2010-07-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

saying goodbye isn't easy..
hate you hate you.
hate myself.
i can't breatheeeeeee..
everything about you,
seems to be a lieeeee.
a lie.
a lie.
a lie.
we're better off this way.
it's time to say goodbyeeeeee...
goodbye.

haha, typing random stuff.
boohooooo, i wanna sleep.

2010-07-12T23:14:00.003+08:00

happy 17th birthday, jia an!:D

to peeps: really really sorry if i dont pick up your calls or dont reply your smses.
CAS my hp is really GG.argh.
so.. sorry.

i wanna screammm.
screamm my lungs out.
BOO.

chapel today,
haha songs all sing b4.
so quite fun~
haheho(:

okayye, piano exam, 5th August, my mother's bday.
wish me luck :/
gonna book the studio at JE tmr.
hope thr're slots.

chinese oral in two days time, wednesday.
gahhh, howhowhow?
how to prepare?so many topics...
and i aint making any progress loooking at GSC notes.(hahahaa)

and PROJECT WORK.
the timeline's so...idk.
so little time to complete all these things.
gahhhhhh.... how are we supposed to complete everything?????......

aye, anything.
chocolates.
one form of stress reliever,heeee :D
songs too!
and drama!

alright,shall just..
stone and rot my way through this week.
again.

thr's still a scar.
that reopens every now and then.
it still hurts.
but i dont cry over it anymore.

2010-07-12T00:22:00.001+08:00

okay, in the end so fail.
haha,
didnt do ANY homework during this weekend.
NONEEEEE.
well done-.-

wtv, gonna sleep in 30 minutes time.
i promised.

get scolded tmr, i deserve it.

2010-07-11T20:25:00.002+08:00

shall post before i start to try to do my homework,haha.

yesterday, co cip.
quite screwed. no. it was vehhh screwed.
tio gl-ed again, AS USUAL.
and i had headache for almost the whole day.
suckedddd.
slept from 9+pm till 10+am this morning hahahaha, so nice.

finally finished that frankenstein part two book of dean koontz. AHHH, havent end yet! i want more!!! boo.

listening to boys like girls again.
yeaaa, reallyyy niceeee :D

okayye, homework shit.
lets go do shit.
:/

2010-07-08T01:36:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA had to find an audio recording software to record my chinese thing just now.
SOOOO, after i had recorded and all,
i played with it.
HAHAHAAHAHA SO FUNNNNN.
adjust the pitch,
the speed,
go reverse,
whooooo.
hahahahaha, damn cooool!:D

alright, time to do.. self-intro for my new form teacher.
she's a freaakkkkk!!
hahaha, kiddingggg.
just that she's.. different. (ohwell, everyone is)

hahahahahaha audio recording.
i shall play with it again some other day.
whooooo(:

2010-07-08T00:18:00.001+08:00

feel like pulling my hair out.
GAHHH.

cas you know whattttt.
this feeling sucksss though i don't say it.
D:

2010-07-08T00:06:00.003+08:00

i don't feel too good.
...runny nose.
nothing serious but i don't feel like doing anything, just wanna sleep.
so drained, idk why.

co cip this sat.. ah, scared we'll miss out sth..

didnt do any homework.
so fail.
can't be bothered to care already now.

ahhh.
idk why,
i suddenly hate myself for so many things.

i mentioned before i act differently around different people, didn't i?

2010-07-05T21:27:00.002+08:00

tmr, the cycle begins again.
lagging behind tutorials and lectures.
whooo, why did this happen again?
o:
hahaha, time management.sucks.

and we're gonna get back papers this week.
whoo, the part i hate most.
aye, whatever laaa, my parents dont keep nagging can alr -.-

interview wasnt that good today.
got guailan-ed,zzz.

anyway, i just copied the timetable, and realised,
isnt it the same timetable?
whatever,can't be bothered to check, hee.
okay, off to.. pack my worksheets?
no point rushing hmk now alr laaa, sure can't finish.
haha.

cya.

2010-07-02T20:37:00.003+08:00

alright, it's.. around 8.30pm now and i havent shower yet.
boohooo, there's co tmr and i still needa go school earlier.
and boohoo to monday too, co interview, can't go class outing.

SOMEONE, repair my phone for me!
the battery is pissing me off!!!

2010-07-02T00:57:00.003+08:00

since i'm listening to songgssssss, i might as well blogggg(:
okay, terms over for me.
to people who still have terms, jiayou!!

hahahhahahahaahahahaaaa,
spamming twitter :p
BOOOOOO!:D

hahahaha, june hols homework not completed.
whooo.
and i gonna be SUPER BORED tomorrow, SAVE MEEEEEEEE.

i wonder what CO will be like with only j1s, hee.

ACK shit, school will be back to NORMAL again.... boringgggggg.

hahaha randomnesssss.
okay, i go read 'forever odd' - dean koontz.
cyaaaaaaa(:

aye,it's been such a long time.

2010-06-29T21:30:00.003+08:00

BOO.

2010-06-16T10:58:00.000+08:00

yes,i may be a friend,but im excluded frm most of the things yea..it gives othrs the wrong idea that im veh close,ha..

how to find it back?
that energy.

2010-06-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

im backkk...
not that there's anyone out there,haha.

band concert yesterday yea!!
great concert,hohoho.
they make me feel like dancing HAHA.
and i so wanna be part of them..
haha my band classmates are so popular, kena surrounded by so many peeps after the concert ♥
they're going LA, oh-so-cool!
they gonna perform at disneyland!!!
hope they enjoy their stay thereeeee(:
when they back, it's gonna be terms.
ahhh....

ohwell,
went to the zoo today for cip.
wheeee, some kids are cuteeeee!:D
but some kids have that 'heck care' attitude, makes me -.-
but nehmind, i had fun, at least(:
was tiringgggggg, but the smiles were worth it.

okay i gonna say it for the duno how many time.
i saw two monkeys.
both wanted to climb up to the rooftop.
one managed to.
the other, it dropped onto the floor with a THUD.
damnnnn, heart pain, i saw the whole thing eh.
but it managed to climb up.
phew,haha.

ohyeaaa, by the way, chimpanzees have NO LIFE.
they... eat, fight, sleep, laze around ♥
just like me during this june holidays HAHA.

ah, i hope people dont get so angry..
laxlax... :/

and you said it would be funny
to keep me hanging in suspense
then i'd run over to your house
and i'd scale the chainlink fence
that borders your backyard
and then i'd climb through your window
and i'd whisper that i love you
as you fall out of your clothes
and we'd lay there in the darkness
like the dream of you i had
where we captured all the fireflies
and we knew what time we had
could be counted on our fingertips
and that almost made you cry
but you let me hold you tightly
as we said all our goodbyes

and may i say i loved you more
may i say i loved you more

and it must have been an hour
that i clutched you in my arms
and i must have said the right things
because you instantly felt warm
and you heard my heart stop beating
and you wanted not to cry
as your sympathetic whispers
they told a tale of bad goodbyes
you swore you saw me laughing
and i swore i saw you smile
as the time we've spent together
was meant to last us quite a while
as i take this piece of you with me
i'll carry to my grave
and knowing that for someone
you're an angel sent to save

keep breathing my angel,
if you go down i go with you
keep breathing, just keep breathing
may i say i loved you more..

so let's drink to memories we shared
down one for all the hopes and cares
here's two for being unaware that you're gone
because before too long you'll be a memory..

-One Man Drinking Games by Mayday Parade

Randomness.

2010-06-09T00:56:00.000+08:00

haha,how cool is this,blogging in bed?lame xD ah,ok,sleeptime.should stop using phone alr.argh,my lips super dry,pain..oh well,i love the silence nd darkness right now.

SLEEP!

2010-06-07T23:06:00.002+08:00

okay, that was about enCOre.
hahaha,
now.
random crap.

listening to 987 FM online now, xinmsn,haha.
ohwell, should get to sleep soon.
this sucks sucks sucks.
idk how to describe what i'm feeling.
irritated?
but by nothing.
nehmind.
GAHHHHHH.

:/

enCOre

2010-06-07T23:02:00.003+08:00

enCOre's over!
thanks to those who attended the concert!
and to..
shawn, joel, gordon, janan, adriel, mao, qihui for buying ticket from me :D
AND attending the concert,haha.
thanks shawn and joel for flowers,
thanks adriel for chocolate,
thanks nukun for one ball of ..... ? HAHA, idk what i ate! something chocolately hahahaha.
thanks jeanette, yawen, huishan for the 'lovenotes',
thanks yawen for ferrero rocher,
thanks huishan for the japanese paper fan,
thanks gweejie for goodie bag.

hahahaha, THANKYOU ALL!
to those who attended the concert,
and those in CO,
and teachers in charge.
plus those who gave moral support HAHA.

2010-06-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

300th post!

went out with zhengjie and sokhian today.
hoho,slackkkk.
mmm,nice tho, we made up a family treee,
cas sokhian was like a mother to zhengjie hahaha.
soooo...
weiting is the dadddy!xD
ok crapppp, this is top secret, shhh!

mmm, facebook is lagging like #$%^#^*@#$%%#%$
hoho, gotta sleep soon, had diarrhea just now :/
hope it's not food poisoning from nasi lemak.
going out agn tmr!(:

i like talking to sokhian,haha.
niceeeee.
i must be les HAHA.
and i like poking zhengjie!xD

secrets yet to be found out.WHOOO.
okok, i veh KPO xD
cya!!!

she asked me why do i still keep his photos.
if she were me, she would have thrown them away.

2010-05-31T02:58:00.003+08:00

it's been long since i posted.
haha, i'm up at this hour..
ah..and sth unexpected happened.
nehmind,random shit.
just tellin' you, my heart's beating damn fast now.

was doing chinese eh,haha.
ownnn laaa, do till so late,hoho.
haha, my reflections that i wrote IS real.
my personal experience, cept i changed some parts.
if not, it could well be a love story.
damnnit. :/

ahh, now holidays, we should make full use of it!
going back to nanhua tmr~
hahaha to kop guzheng or sth lolololol.
probably going sumo house to lunch with sokhian(:

hokey dokey, i should piano moreeee.

ah, memories came flowing yesterday.
i thought about him.
i dreamt about him.
hahs, why huh?
i shouldn't right?
i don't know.

listening to 'thunder' by boys like girls now.
acoustic!!!:D
they're cute,hoho.

can anybody talk to me now???

2010-05-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

haha DESPO ATTEMPT.
selling enCOre tickets, AC chinese orchestra perf.
6 June, Sunday, 7.30pm,
at ACJC Centre of Performing Arts (CPA)
contact me if you want tickets!!
tickets are $12 each.
ah joke laaa.......................x.x

siannnndiao.
people, please be healthy!:/
moooo.
was listening to only hope by manda moore agn.
and aft that was SS501 song,HAHA. manda's fault :D
alrightttty,
back to work.
lots to do!
gambateh!(:
hahahahaaaaa,lameeeeddddd.

2010-05-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

time now, 12:34AM, so cool hahaha.
okayyy,
YESTERDAY(wednesday) was SUCKYY.
didnt enjoy it or whatsoever.
cept during CO when playing tanbo song hahaha(:

ah, i am such a bad girl.
bad..
):

haha how i wish i had a piano that i can plug earpiece.
then i can play it anytime, without disturbing others.
ahh, expensive tho x.x
btw, GG for piano exam alr la...
no surprise if i fail..
i gonna waste parents money once agn..wtf.

've done a lot of things i shouldnt have yesterday.
shit.
:/

2010-05-17T21:50:00.002+08:00

oh man, tired.
lots of things to do x.x

okay,what's the use of asking
你的功课可以吗？
everday when the reply does not matter at all?-.-
wth.

i veh extra laaa i know,zzz.

i told myself i can't be bothered,
in the end i still bothered.
i shouldn't have.
-.- wth is wrong with me.

now is the pissed off mood.
beware.

hahahahaha.
okay whatever lol.
come here to crap only.
gonna study for gp package test tmr.
i hope i dont fall asleep halfway.

yooooo.
:/

instead of holding you, i was holding out,
i should've let you in, but i let you down,
you were the first to give, i was the first to ask,
(no) second chance.